September 9, 2019
My first blog entry. Bare with me as I this is my first time. I mentioned on IG that I had some big news. Well, I’m starting my Yoga Teacher training tomorrow. I have wanted to take on this for many years, the timing just never worked out or shit was hitting the fan. I was practicing yoga pretty much on a daily basis in 2012-2013 then my mom got sick. Like really sick, a GBM. For those of you that don’t know a GBM is a glioblastoma multiform which is that bad brain cancer. I kept going to the mat and practicing. Then I lost a baby, and my husband decided that marriage wasn’t in his wheelhouse anymore. I kept going to my mat and practicing. Then my mom died. I couldn’t go to my mat. I just couldn’t. I would cry thru the whole thing. I couldn’t dance. I cried thru class. I could punch and I could run, and I could spin. Anything that had a mind body connection was just too overwhelming. This isn’t my sad story and I’m not going to relive all the crap that I went through. I will probably reference some of my past so I little background I thought would be helpful.
Then life got better, a met a great guy, married him started my own business and have been in an awesome place. The timing was right, and I was ready to go to my mat again and then that led me to the teacher training at Spirit of Yoga. You know when you walk into a place and your like, yup this is where I need to be. Well, that was how it was for me at SOY.
I’m nervous and excited and ready to start this journey. I do know that it’s time to open that heart chakra and let the grief out. That’s what I’m most afraid about. What’s going to come out on the mat. I have locked up that mom grief for 5 years. Yet I knew that it was time to unlock it and the safest and healthiest way for me to do that was thru exploring my practice and learning yoga in its deepest form.
No, I don’t know what I’m going to do with this YTT, I’m letting it guide me as I go. I am going to go into with my most authentic self tomorrow and work at keeping my ego in check.
I’m so glad that you chose to go on my journey with me.
Namaste!
